He likes her fine, he just doesn’t like her…!

16 Feb

She confronted his unavailability head front. They didn’t speak; they didn’t keep in touch. For a long time, she remained convinced that this period of distance was a strange emotional coma from which she would suddenly awake. The tiny flame of hope that this may all have been a petulant phase in his otherwise limitless capacity for love and understanding was perhaps more painful than the harsh finality of his disinterest. To keep grasping at ever-slimmer chances of a happy ending was frustrating, and then ridiculous, and then profoundly sad. She would have liked to just go straight to sad.

She finally understood that time takes things away, and it usually takes these things away from you without offering an easy replacement. Parts of her want to move forward in a constructive fashion, but the heavier, more vocal pieces sometimes start to inch downward instead. She used to sit there and make excuses for him like “he had a bad day”; “he hates answering text messages”.

No. Nope. If you like someone, you find a way. If you like someone, they invade your thoughts and actions involuntarily. If you like someone, you’re on fire. If you like someone, you make room for them in your brain and in your life — no matter what else is going on. (Or even better, you don’t have to make room. You just feel like they fit.)

Sure, she’s fun to be with. She’s easy going. She makes him laugh. She kisses him whenever he wishes to. But he doesn’t think about her before going to bed at night. He doesn’t wonder what she is doing during the day. He doesn’t need to see her, to touch her, to talk to her. He is no longer a part of her life, and he doesn’t even acknowledge that. Memories no longer exist for him.

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But here’s the thing, she can’t “kind of” like him. she can’t fall “a little bit” in love with him. She is going to like him in a way that is going to warm him, in a perpetual sort of way. She doesn’t fall often and easy, she’s choosy, but when she does, she will wash them both ashore.

As much as the little scar on her knee will always remind her to watch out when she is running, his on her heart will teach her to be kind. Because she knows what it feels like to be cast aside with indifference. He will live in her mind as a cautionary tale, a fable of how much damage words can do — especially when they are insincere.

And although sometimes, she is nostalgic for what they had…Please know that she will stop reaching out.

…He likes her fine, he just doesn’t like her

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6 Responses to “He likes her fine, he just doesn’t like her…!”

  1. Stephanie February 16, 2013 at 5:52 pm #

    This is so beautiful that it brought tears to my eyes. You are wonderful, Miss.

  2. aniisah February 17, 2013 at 9:10 am #

    If you like someone, you find a way. <– Damn right.

  3. dilshad neemuth February 18, 2013 at 10:34 am #

    …He likes her fine, he just doesn’t like her.

    Standing on the platform on that cold morning , she takes a deep breath and grabs her luggage. maybe it was destined to be this way.
    She makes few steps down the train station, she felt very lonely , yet she was surrounded by so many people, each one taken up by their own activities.
    She remembered all the good times she had in the past.. that special feeling of being connected to someone .. she imagined all kind of things she could have done to keep things going smooth, what was missing..she had imagined kind-of a million times the scenarios in her own mind…but deep inside somehow she knew she had to let go ..a few tears flowed down her rosy cheeks.
    It was time to go, as the station master blew the whistle .. you know the kind of sound to let people know they should board the train, just like in the movies.
    She turned around to see if he had come to see her for the last time. there was still that mad hope that one day things would come back to normal again. For months, she’s been protecting herself in an imaginary world just to escape the harsh reality. a little voice that keeps telling her that she was dreaming and anytime, the nightmare could soon end.

    She passed by some cute children who were playing with colored balloons. They were smiling , giggling and having so much fun. She thought if only she would go back to childhood days again , free from the worries of the adulthood. that would be nice.

    With a heavy heart , she boards the train and after carrying her luggage with great difficulty to find her compartment. there was this long corridor which was quite narrow. Outside, there were the noise of people hurrying around to find their destinations, an old man selling peanuts at the stand , and for the last time the siren started to resonate.. the train has started to move.

    Managing her way through the corridor and trying clumsily to keep her balance , she finally found out the compartment at the end of the corridor. She opened the door slowly when suddenly, she heard a warm voice from behind. a voice that will in a nearby future influence both their destinies.. she hesitated a long time before turning back. she always thought things would never be the same as before, but the truth is that everything changes over time. Good things were on the way as she smiled and pushed her way back through the door.. a new adventure was awaiting to unfold.

  4. Maliha Bhugalee February 18, 2013 at 1:57 pm #

    Totally love this! 🙂 Well written! U completed the unfinished story! 🙂

  5. dilshad neemuth February 20, 2013 at 12:39 pm #

    @M “Every good story deserves embellishment”. Really, all I have done is give another dimension to your story which I’ve left open-ended on purpose. nothing more.

    How you intend to carry the story forward is entirely up to you.

    Ceci dit , what happens next is much more interesting. the train is now slowly moving away from the station , leaving behind the foggy clouds that have shrouded the train station. You check out through the window ,and notice the people waving their goodbyes from the platform. who does she meets in the train? does she get over her first love? do we have the usual happy ending. well guess the story is not really over, but rather leads to a even more entertaining discovery of life , relationships and … with so many questions left unanswered , as the train continues its way through the green landscapes.

  6. enoxaparin (@enoxaparin2) May 6, 2013 at 4:16 pm #

    been reading some of our posts – this one is absolutely beautiful 🙂

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